Tuesday, July 7, 2015

Avocado-Coconut Ice Cream x 3

Chocolate and Avocado-Coconut Ice Cream Cones

My father mentioned it a few weeks back: a local ice cream contest. He had signed us up as a team because, wouldn't it be fun. To make a batch of ice cream. To make it really great. He would let me choose the recipe, and then we could make it together, collaborate.

And that we did.

Thursday, July 2, 2015

Sweet Amandine

Sweet Amandine Cake

Monday night I drove to Napa with this sweet almond tart wrapped and wedged in the seat behind me. Napa is a funny thing now. The vineyards of the present. The orchards and ranches of the past. And the continual soft, rural breeze of summer. We went to the memorial service of a good family friend, a woman who spent her life watching Napa shift and change right under her shoes. She was matron of honor in my mother's wedding. She's known my siblings and I since we were babes. And according to the speeches that night, she gave away love and music like my mother used to give out love and gum - it was just a common courtesy, a reflex action, to share what fun she had tucked in her purse.

Friday, June 26, 2015

Here I am

What you see below is what I noticed just the other day: a fig. There is a fig (on a twig, on a branch, on a tree) and that tree is planted in the ground in my very own back yard. It's taken a while, folks, but we planted it. The fig tree. It has made its way into a poem or two and maybe even a prayer. And for a while I thought I should never have mentioned it. Were we complete failures? But the tree got planted. And then the blessed thing got all excited and produced this testament to rootgrowth. And here I am, gawking.

Saturday, May 9, 2015

All I can do

I'm off this morning to play kitchen faery for that Mother's Day Tea that went so well and good last year. And even though I've spent the better part of three days flitting about over wee sweet treats, I wanted to take this lovely loaf for us all to nibble on while we worked today. And I wanted to share it with you, too, while it was still fresh. A little thanks. A little pause. A little sustenance.

Banana bread with berries and coffee

Thursday, April 9, 2015

Friends Who Cook: Emily Ganzer

Since my Beloved has been back I've actually been making meals again (!), and so the subject of dinner has been revived.

Meet my friend, Emily. She is an stunning artist, writer, mother, shop-keeper, home cook, and friend. She mentioned a quince soda to me back in October, and I forgot to thank her properly: Thank you, Emily!

A long while ago Emily and I and another friend were emailing back and forth on the subject of feeding ourselves and our families - of how we do it well, or not so well, of what life changes can do for our cooking, and how inspired or uninspired we are by the daily glory of it all. I liked what they had to say, so I asked Emily to make the conversation official, and public. Here I interview her, and she shares a recipe. Enjoy!

Emily Ganzer
Emily and her girls and a certain blackberry basil birthday cake.

Wednesday, April 1, 2015

Sometimes Twice

I've been at it since fall - cooking cauliflower too long with too much olive oil. Cedar calls it "cauliflower cooked forever," named after the broccoli cooked forever I make often and he loves, also obviously cooked too long and with even more olive oil. He asks for the cauliflower in his lunch. He asks to eat it for snack. And when Eden is in tantrums from hunger at mealtime, some days her only gateway food is this. She will soothe herself to normalcy with just a few bites.

Thursday, February 26, 2015

A Rose, A Kiss, A Fulfillment

The Lenten Rose under the kitchen window is in full bloom now. The foliage is dark green and deeply lobed, and the "flowers" are somewhere between the color of the leaves and midnight maroon. I planted it last year around this time. I was giving in to hopes of a yard that could testify to beauty and forethought. But it sat in its spot for a month or two before I got to it. My green-thumbed friend was visiting, and I had to convince her not to get out the spade and dig a hole herself. I could always move it, she said. But - and she stared me down - it needed to get in the ground.

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

Three-Layer Fresh Coconut Cake

"Have patience with everything that remains unresolved in your heart. Try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don't search for the answers which could not be given now, because you would bot be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer."
~Rainer Maria Rilke

On the wall behind my desk is a patchwork of papers, strips of poem cut from magazines, index cards with scrawls and prayers and incantations. This quote is one of them. I am in the thick of a mess of writing. The thoughts are scattered with broken bits everywhere, the writing itself tousled a bit and not well-behaved. And my subject matter has made a plunge for the depths. The other day I had to wrap up my writing time by plunking out a poem about rainbows. Just because I needed something vaulted and bright.

Friday, January 9, 2015

Grapefruit Olive Oil Cake with Pistachio and Chocolate

This is all about a loss of control. Can you do this? Lose control and let wild mind take over? It is the best way to write. To live, too. ~Natalie Goldberg

This morning I finally took down the paper snowflakes taped to the front window. We had the tree undressed and out of the house before New Years, but I had left the snowflakes. Some of the them are pure white and others almost beige, all are varying sizes and haphazard patterns. But as you can imagine, each has its own merit and meaning.

A few weeks before Christmas my poet/writer/teacher/friend came over to teach me about chestnuts and talk about a possible mentorship, and she saw the snowflakes. Her first book of poetry was long in coming, and the stack of rejection letters for individual poems numbered into ridiculous. Was it 150? 300? Sorry, Rae, I don't remember. But she saved them all, and for the release party she cut those letters into snowflakes and hung them all over the gallery where she read. Her book's title was Open Winter. Appropriate. And it went on, by the way, to receive a stellar string of recognitions and prizes. That's one transformative way to tell the negations to hang it. (She was way more eloquent when she told me the story.) I wish I had been around to see it and to take one home.


Wednesday, December 24, 2014

Mince(meat) Pies, Two Ways

It's Christmas Eve, and I can bet no one is looking for one more thing to bake and do. But I wanted to offer something, some hope for next year, a claim on continuation, a sweet little something that tips its hat (once again) to the dark and light of December. These mince pies have been on my on my brain all month. They are the sort of Christmas treat that make me kick myself for not trying sooner. So I offer them, to save you from soreness. I'm toting them along to the party tonight where we will eat minestrone soup and all manner of wee sweet, sing carols to my sister's piano playing, pin the carrot on the snowman (an early gift), and roll dice like our lives depended on it. It's my favorite part.